eating alone

i love telling servers that i will just be one person

it is remarkable how quickly this transformation took place

i used to feel self-conscious if i was eating alone

i always ended up going on my phone to ensure that the other patrons knew that although none of my friends were with me at that moment, they did exist

now, i just enjoy it

i enjoy listening to conversations in hostels without joining them

i enjoy wishing myself good morning in the mirror

i have definitely been struggling with things. but not with loneliness.